Poor Bailey!

Ahhh, I have neglected to blog about this, but it has been a thorn in my side all summer. MRSA, look it up it's not cute. It is basically a staph infection that can live on surfaces for days and in the air as well, it can be passed from a sneeze...and can live in your nasal passage...oh man, it is a pain to get rid of!
My poor Jasmine was the first of the victims, she had spent time at her Dad's house when I was in the hospital. And developed a really painful boil on her back and other small ones in other places. Later I found out her father had had a boil at the time she was there, and that they had kept returning, but he had never gone to the Dr about it. So another nice gift from the ex...
The Dr. had drained Jasmine's boil and given her a prescription and I thought all was well...no.
The next on the list was Jaden and Kai-Li, both getting boils next to a cut, more meds more draining of painful disgusting boils, and these things just get bigger and bigger, the only thing that gets rid of them is this nasty antibiotic that can make some people really ill. Poor Kai-Li had several on her knee where she scrapped her knee, the bacteria goes in through cuts, and it was so painful for her to  have me drain them, basically scrape the top off and squeeze the puss out when it would start to look red. Then Bailey on his butt, I caught this one quickly one day when it was small and it drained and he was on meds and it went away, then Jaden got one on his back that was really bad, meds again. Then now just today Bailey has another one on his butt and now he has a fever, because he didn't want to tell me about it for fear of the painful draining. Uhg, the Dr. says he might have to be put on IV antibiotics if his fever doesn't go away with the mouth antibiotics. I am so over this! I have to give the kids baths in bleach to try and get rid of this nasty bacteria we have going on. I hope we can get rid of it, I do not wish it one anyone!

More stress!

So I just found out we are not 100% in the clear for the house until closing, before closing they do another quick check of your credit and employment! AHHHH!!
The other thing is finding insurance that isn't sky high for a house that is built in 1850....knob and tube wiring is still evident, but not in use, but for some reason my inspector decided to write the fact that it's still presesnt and not removed in the report and so that scared a couple insurers...
I went online and looked for quotes some of the people that called me were obviously from down south and when I mentioned an 1850 wood built home they about pooped their pants...I guess it's pretty unheard of anywhere but up here where that is pretty typical of the houses around here, most of them are at least 100 years old.
Well I am going to keep a positive attitude, but it's not over until it's over!
The house is not quite in the bag yet folks, fingers crossed, but still going to be apprehensive until it's all over.

Thank you God!

The answer to a long awaited prayer came today and it was a big fat "YES!" we finally got approved for a loan! Yes, I know amazing considering what we have been through with first bad credit due to GJ's lovely sisters husband who stole his info and opened lines of credit and didn't pay it off, and then his sisters actually info showing up on his credit report! Our horribly low income. Me being out of work for almost 5 months.
Yay! We are soon going to own a house a 2300+ square foot house! Whoo hoo!!

Mother's day??

One of the Dr.'s came in today and told me that there is a possibility they will let me wait it out until 35 weeks. It all really depends on the baby, if he is doing ok in there. if not  am sure they will veto their decision and get him right out. If he makes it until 35 weeks (mothers day) it will be so great! Maybe only a short time in the ICN!
A few things that make it tricky. A. the bleeding, I have had about three episodes where I will bleed and cramp for a few days, the last being worse than eve. It has stopped, although my amniotic fluid is still peach tinged, so maybe right there ready to go full force again. Also the baby has his cord in a precarious spot. Around his head...when they are doing the NST his heart rate will drop. Yesterday they came running in...not sure if this means they will knock me out and do a c section of if they will try and get me to change positions...don't know...anyway. These things make it not a sure thing.

Feeling blue

I feel sad today. Missing Easter with the family is hard. I usually make a big ham dinner and do the Easter baskets for the kids. I feel like my kids don't even know me anymore. Naomi won't even really come to me anymore. They kids don't even say they miss me anymore. I feel like it's going to be hard when I come back home.
I am glad that the baby is staying put and all seems to be well. But I am torn at what to do when he is born. Obviously they are going to "kick" me out two or three days after he comes, do I stay here in the ICN or do I stay at the David house? (like a Ronald McDonald house) do I rent a hotel room so I can at least have some privacy? Do I go home and drive down every night? I just don't know. The way they are talking he will have to stay at least 3-4 weeks, longer if there are complications. So much to think about. This whole thing is just so hard. I am going to make sure I never have another baby! I am so done, it's just too hard on the family. At times I wish I never got pregnant. I feel kind of distant from the baby, I feel afraid to care about him. I will have to leave hi with strangers, he will have tubes and wires hooked up. I won't be able to breast feed him on my schedule. I feel like it's not even my kid...so many emotions. And then I feel like I lost my other  kids. It hurts so bad.
I am dreading his birth, really dreading it. 

I am very angry right now and I cannot describe it

So, ya, I have a roommate, and it couldn't be worse...white trash begins to describe them...right now they are having an argument about swearing and she swears as much as he does!
I am forced to listen to rap until 11 at night, constantly watch either USA or MTV and the whole family is here! Mom, Dad, 20 year old b/f....ahhhhh!
The end of the tunnel is Friday when she is going to be induced, but then who knows if I will have to get another roommate?
Did I mention really loud cell phones? With really loud ring tones...ya, try to take a nap...><